A man and confession (2)

The night began at cybercafé between 2.00 a.m to 3.00 a.m in Malaysia, when a man realizes to confess his feeling to a girl. He knew that he didn’t need to confess because this girl is close to “ustazah”. This girl always helps him, motivates him, and also consoles him. These happen in certain direction. Sometimes this girl motivates him indirectly to keep her personality as a future “ustazah”. She’s studying far away from Malaysia. But that isn’t an obstacle for a man to confess his feeling because we are living in technology era. This man is known as a rocker eventhough he is taking religious course in a local university.

Then, a night became amusing when a man had stay in front of his rented PC for 20 minute earlier to make a preparation as a “confessor”. Next to him is his friend who is sitting to chat. chatting started.This man tried to drag the time longer by asking irrelevant questions to her through yahoo messenger. He asked about her studies there, and other stuffs. No one knew that he was nervous and shaking including his friend, sitting next to him. He managed to find a sentence that suits for his confession in yahoo instant message. He typed “sebenarnye aku suka kat kau”. Then, he relaxed for a while to breath. Accidentally, his friend who saw the sentence, just press the button “enter” and the words were on yahoo instant message. The time stopped for a few seconds. Both of them didn’t reply nor respond in the instant message.

After few seconds, the girl replied with a question “betol ke ni?”. And he replied with the word “YES”. Then the question continued “kenapa aku”. The man didn’t type this “cinta tidak mengenal orang” instead, he replied with “aku suka kau sebab kau baik, bagus n dah lame ak pendam dan bla bla bla”. The girl who was recognized as future “ustazah” replied “ takpa la..kita belajar dulu ye…”. But the man replied “ jangan bagitau sape2 tau..segan”. And the replied is “ tak,aku tak gtau sape2”. And this conversation continued as a normal conversation till the clock 3.00 a.m.

In the morning at 7.30 a.m, the man updated his facebook by writing “yes.. Finally”. The girl who saw that status commented. He finally confessed to a person he loves. But he didn’t know what the girl feels about him. A tough moments for this man. Then, the girl keeps in touch with this man constantly. The girl uploaded his picture in her blog after had been challenged by this man to upload. But the man still didn’t know about the girl’s feeling about him.

i don't know

“Am I do anything right? No, you don’t”. Some people always ask this question because of unacceptable reasons. They feel guilty doing something oppose from their real attitude. Night clubs, free fights, free clothing, making a mess and anything that related to these examples. They always feel bored, don’t have motive, lack of attitude and always alone. Why? They experience their life is just a life, nothing challenging, to them it’s a just simple life, feel stressed because of work and fed up with friends. This is happening to me. When I think of these, I realize that I need someone who can take away all the burdens from me and fill up my imbalance space. The person that I need is someone who can give me motivations and support when I’m in trouble. But I still doubt that I need to have a courtship with girl or not. I don’t want to make a girl always cry and listen to my problems then; I always leave her for my work. I abandon her because I am busy. That’s why this question forced out from my mind “am I do anything right?” and I answered this question myself “no, you don’t”.

So, next question is out. “What I really need for my life?” so the answer is “I don’t even know”. This is because life doesn’t have a vision and mission to be realized if you are giving up for your life. It is better to say that to yourself. To rise up your aspiration, what you need to do is always share the problems with the person who care. Not the person you need. Either they are friends or family. Then, you should have a tide relationship with god (ALLAH) and Never far away from HIM. Reciting the Al-Quran, always remember what is allowed and prohibited for you. Try to behave in all actions. Always praying and do all the good deeds. The needs of your life will come out if you realize the purpose of your life. I hope…

A man and the confession

He never thought that he will confess that words directly. As a human being, he was recognized as a very brutal and mean person. But for the woman he loves, he became very gentle and also shy person. This story starts when he went out with that girl to watch “nurkasih the movie” together. Throughout the road to the movie, they were chatting about anything .

A few moments later, they took a break and continued their stories. That girl didn’t even know what the real intention of that man. She kept wondering what will happened next. In nervous position, blur mind, with less action, Nothing much to do and keep on talking. And sometimes she asked him why he still looks nervous and shaky to answer any question from her. Deep from the heart, confession plan. He tried to drag the time so he can calmly confess. Sometimes, he asked the beautiful girl if she wants to order any desert. Just to make time longer. try to hide his nervous, he grabbed a spoon tightly to confess. It took about two hours for him to arrange his words. They were in a restaurant, Not just normal restaurant, it is a very special restaurant where is Very Memorial place for them.

When the time comes, he finally confessed to the girl. “sebenarnya aku sukakan kau” that is the confession he made. He worried if his love just an unrequited love. Unexpectedly, the girl told him that she had fallen in love since the 1^st meeting, but scared to confess and tell. She thought that guys just prefer hot girls, not like her who is humble and courteous person. Even the girl is older than him, he still to hook up with her. Because of one reason: LOVE. He was taking a deep breath after he expressed his feeling. His Heart beats turned normal and the girl sit on the chair speechless. Both of them feel just like staying in paradise where only they are alone without any distraction, interruption and disturbance.

At the last moment, they were walking side by side, and keep talking together… Like a saying those, Love from one side hurts, but love from two sides heals. When your turn comes, don’t miss it. Grab it!!...

Fantasia and me

I just came back from giant mall; I bought something that I left for two years.do you Still remember of advertisement that has been acted by Mawi and Amani? A perfume. FANTASIA is the name of Malaysia perfume. Fantasia is not just a normal name, but name of hall and glory for metrosexual men. A perfume I don’t know where they came from. On the perfume pack stated this perfume was made in and distributed by Malaysia Company. Maybe it came from Malaysia. On the perfume bottle also stated words I don’t know where it is. EAU DE TOILETTE is the word I just said. I don’t know what it means. Searching at Google translate just mentioned it as a toilet water…what??? Just forget the meaning. Maybe it has very special meaning.

Pack of this perfume also so attracting for guy who love an art. This pack only have two colors. Black and white. Simple for that pack. I cannot tell too much for this pack. Actually, I’m focusing on their smell-scent and product. The smell-scent can explain by men. Some man, prefer to use other perfume. Dunhill, Boss and so on. But those entire products are from other countries and usually used by men. As a Malaysian, why don’t we use Malaysia's product? FANTASIA is the one perfume that u should try. And for me, FANTASIA IS THE ONE I SHOULD OF PROUD OF. Yahh…because I WAS BORN in Malaysia…for those who want to give me a present for my birthday or any event, I prefer you to buy a perfume from Malaysia. …fantastic…

need...

When u wants me no longer need me, then I’ve to go,

When u doesn’t want me and u need me, then I’ve stay,

When u always wants me, but I’ve to go, please let me go,

When u feel little bit tired of me, but you find little bit love of me, hence u needs me,

If u really needs me, never say that u want me.

Because “want” doesn’t mean “need.”

kerna takut ,semalaman tidak tido.

kerna takut,hampir semalaman tidak tido...pengalamn mimpi buruk yang cukup menangkap jiwa y kecil ini ke ruang ketakutan..ribut taufan yang datang ketika rehat didalam mimpi ckup tok mengenalkan bahawa manusia ini kecil dan kerdil...ketika itu,manusia ini hanya maMpu berkata ALLAH,ALLAH,ALLAH..mimpi ini juga mengingatkan akan mati y datang tidak berbau...bkn dapat dihidu atau dirasai mase nye mati..sebagai hamba, ingatlah mati itu hampir...cume lambat atau cepat dan sakit atau tidak tu je pengakhiran nye....

I HAVE BEEN FORCED...

This story is begun with the forcing from my special friend about the blog…no need to mention her name or we can call her KUNTUM..it has been almost 1 year that I don’t update my blog unless she ask me about the blog…I told her that no need to know about my blog. Only me can write comment and also laughing alone about my blog..kite tukar jadi melayu lak..payah nk tulis dalam English ni..mklum la BI tak power.kite sambung balik cite kita...dia ni kata cepat2 la update blog..tak kisah la cite pe..last2 ak terpikir nk cite pasal kna paksa tulis blog..ape ag..mlm ni gak ak tulis..ak dah ckp dgn dia,blog ak ni dah lame tk update n tkda followers..ak on blog ni just tok luahan hati sendiri tanpa org tau…hahahhah….last2 dia tau..tak jadi private la pasni..

Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa….

Dan si kuntum pun semangat nk bace blog ak..n dia siap bagi ak tempoh 1 hari.dia bg mase pun sebab ak tnye bila nk kna siapkan...tapi ak masih tiada idea tok di ceritakn….pe la ak nk cerita hek?? tKkn nk cite pasal peribadi kn..kan dah kantoi dgn si kuntum ni…tkut2 diketahui ramai….hahahaha..dan akhirnye ak memilih tok menceritakn tentang paksaan menulis blog…nk cerita tentang the confession of love tak syok lak…ak ni bkn jiwang sgt,so takyh cite pasal cinta2 ni..eeee….geli kot laki cite pasal ni..aku rase cukup la sampai cini…len kali ak nk tulis pasal the confession of love…khas tok sape2 berjiwa romantic..HAHAH..jumpa lagi ye…tata